the journal book of my life.. 30.10.30.10 <3

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k i am so tired lah rite now..urgh..dun feel lik waking at 8 evidae..its torturing me quite enuf alredi by waking up earli..+ all the assignment and reports due..urgh!!..feel lik runing..

wad a week last week was..how i wish dat week did not exist at all..

that feeling was reli horrible and it reli makes me sad...reli i do..

presentation was horrible..okie it was okie ektuli..but mr siva gave us too many commentlah!!..ask a student..haha..of course we fight backlah..but no use lah talking to him..he dun care also..and he almst 4get dat day was presentation day..and he was wandering why we wear so formal!!..gong2 nyer cikgu!..

den came floorball compe..which was ektuli gerek and fun..coz get to noe alot of people..which i dono dey were in floorball coz i tink the too pro agaknyer to go for training..?..or isit me who is lazy going to training nowadays..neh mind dosent matter..and yah the team win 1,lose 1 and draw 1(which shud be a win for us)..der were alot of erros by ref and alot of nuisance people who is making a nuisance out of demselves wen they noe dat the goal was not a goal as it hit the side netting dodol!..oki i was reli angry lah seh..almost fight but yah..sabar yasa sabar..

and yah haiz something reli happen dat reli makes me yah down tapi takper lah kan..i tink its settle now..yepz.shud be lah kan..lets hope and i yah pray togeda..

den sat wen to sentosa..haf a family outing..!!..wee!!..wif nenek and atuk and abang and the jirans(jangn eherm k) and yah ibuk..hehe..best tu best lah tapi boring jugak and tired coz keep on walking here and der and took alot of yah photos..

sun go out wif her..YEH!!..alas..walaupn at frst...yah..tak nak bboal pn k pasal the situation..we go belajar at nlb..yepz..wif ... and ....k...wow wen i look at her notes..i criusly tink i myself cannot do it..i hope dearest tak give up k..all the way k..after 4 years of slacking..sekarng is wher u belajar tol.. =) k2?..no give up..but like reli..macam susah seh..ahaha:P..i myself was in daze wen she was writing the notes..den we go makan..coz beri the lapar..we ate nasi ayam at yah dat shop..and den send her back home..yepz..so dat is how i spent my weekend

and i miss her alredi..reli..:P..hehe

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tsk3

jus sad no qn okie..

hepi cause pass btt

sad becz alot of tings

feel my soul wandering about without any objective

feel i dun belong to anibodi

feel super duper lost

fell lik a nangka busuk

felt dat i flare up too much nowadays

feel dat i am super duper useless

i hate school

i want my rest

i want peace

i am reli sori dat i hurt to many people
and i dun lik the situation now!

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dis pas few days..has been a bad time...emotionally and physically..:(

u noe i have my doubts..i am nt sure for eviting..i am jus so scared..and sometimes wad u do makes me realise who i am..jus a normal frnd i gues :X

i`ve been drain out lately..out of energy..oh yah gonaa start my weekly gym session..ahaha..wif khairul iman and hafizul..yah we gonna start gyming but dono lah how long it will last..the grls were like so kecoh lah wen we go gym..almak..cam tak caya lak kitr orang gi gym..neh mind if u dun belief..next time u all follow argh..hehe..and there were alot of tings dat happen during gym session haha..k let it be between us i wll not go into details..oh we planned to swim evi after evi gym session..and dis week is oso known as my sporting week..sebab..went to jog and play soccer..and neba rest seh..even today i haf my floorball training..TIRED GILER ARGH!!..

had my test dis week..which is java and business informatic..arghhahaha..the one tat i tot easy was difficult and the one i tot difficult turn out to be easi(becz teacher help!i would reli fail badly if teacher dun help)...yah busineess test was diff lah!..the java too..but wif the help of teacher i felt so relieve..he almost giv all the coding to us..thank u cher...reli2..and rite i dun wan to sit beside syirah animore..coz she lik to tok about marriage..huh..?..yah marriage..takder benda lain kah..?..haha..takper gue layan kan kamu k syirah..nanti aku makan nasi lemak sambal kau yang kosong tu..ahahah..

den yesterday went to causeway point..to yah have a burday treat fo huiting..went to piza hut to eat..n we even haf a cake surprise for her..thanks to the piza hut staffs..hhehe..hope u enjoy eat huiting..

i was so stress dis week...yah stress about my studies and yah..haiz..alot of tings going thru my mind..sometimes its even for the worst..:(..how can i tink lik dat..but how can i not tink lik dat..wen yah the situation is lik dat..neva mind if u dun understand..its okie..and yah i dun wan u to change for wad u r..its not fair to u..k..?..i jus want it to be lik last time..i am jus sad..reli sad..but yah..i wil to need to change..i feel confuse i feel lost i feel sad..yah dat is how i feel rite now

and i miss u so much..to be der for me to be my listening ear is yah wonderful..and to be wif u is one of the moments dat i shud nt let go..

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herlow..evibodies..hehe..nonsence..

gue sungguh the mendak so i jus blog lah..

erm oh dis week my school have open house..so macam ramai the orang came lah to the school..watch performance and more performance..tapi i tink overall the open housse was okielah..funny lah to see the secondary school studenntss came and was like so jakon...teringat zaman dulu biler kitr orang pegi saner..jakon sangat ker aku..?..ahahaha..skali when dah start poly macam biaser jer eviting..jangn over enthu lah cumer nak ilang jer kan..ahaha..

oh sori to arina..ahaha..coz we bought her a super belated pressie..went to far east on thurs with haikal,huiting and zuer..bought her a pair of shoe..and jus hope lah she lik it..ahaha..sorie eh dok present lambat gtu..

oh3..den get new car..yepz..tapi it felt a lil bit akward largh..coz the car was not high lik the old 1..so it felt alil bit 'drowned' when we sit down..tapi takper it takes time to yah get normal wif the new situation..yepz.:D..dis makes me more determine to get my car license!!..i wan to pass..!!..arghhahahaha..!!!..so dat i can drive dat car..

oh a lil bit woried about my studies..okie actuli i am reli woried about math and javva..argh..dis two module gonna kill me..especially java..i seriusly hate it..math stil can learn but macam veri the susah..haiyo...takut seh..who rela wan to teach me math..please contact me..arghhahaha..and yah help me choose..cost accounting,marketing or entrepeneurship(did i spell it coorectly..?)

oh yahh ektuli i feel a bit down and confuse wif the situtaion rite now...i wan to say sori if i were to make alot of trouble...i am reli sori..argh..:(..haish..

and i still miss her so wad can i do..?

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herlo..aiyo somewad a boring weekend for me...tapi its okie..hehe..

planned to meet dearest yesterday tapi tak jadi hehe..sori yer..next time k we meet..next time to tak tau biler kan..hehe :P

oh yah spent my sat rotting at home..blurgh..takleh tahan dok!!..stay at home..eat,drink,pray,sleep,watch tv..tu jerlah keje gue satu hari..and one ting argh..it will owaes happen lahh..y evitime i wan to jog or do sports wif askdee it will owaes rain..it will owaes k..aiyo..bingit..ahaha..even askdee realise dat..DODOL tol..

den today went out wif family..okie smur xcept adeq..we went to T3..terminal 3...it was reli wow lah..fuiyo..nice..big so modern and so...BURRRR sejuk..ahahaha..den jus now mom and me realise dat there were alot of malay family going der..ahaha..yah almost..den i tell to myself asal smur melayu eh..?..agaknyer kitr sememangnyer KPO gaknyer..k..dat was my tinnking..O yah..ektuli today kua sebab today mayb last day my dad is gonna drive dat tucson jeep.. :( ..the jeep has been power and a good servant to the family..ahah..macam paham..and tahan lasak..best seh and its big lah with its 2.o cc..have driven dat car..so yah gerek..and dad will change to lance EX..the new lancer..looking forward to it tapi tak tau jadi tukar ker tak kan..??.sebab still haf heearted to let go TUCSON..hehe..yah k till here den i blog..bye..esok sekolah..and gue takder mood..

ohh..and to dearest..gud luck k wif ur new school esok..wishing u all the best and dat u can adapt to it..ASAP..hehe..rindu kamu!..

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HERLew 2008 bye2 2007..

wow 2007 ends in an alone mood.. :""(..bohohhhooo..no comment on it lah seh..tapi takper..haha will story it..i spend my countdown alone...!!..argh dat feeling is reali horible lah seh..ni all becz of my adeq...!!..arghhaha..grrr!!..and i hate the bangla group people..ni dearest nyer boifrnd lah ni..dier hantar the whole colonies der to jus sabo me..;).hehe..sebab dier takder kan..hehe..alot of people attitude can be seen sia..orang mabuk talk to me lah..people pushing each other..fights here and der..haha..who cares larh..I WAS ALL ALONE!!!..it would be wonderful if i were to meet my secondary friends or wif her..wher it would be havoc and chaotic when we were togeda..miss those times..looking forward to the next outing..but dono wen ler..

hehe..the past few days has been fun..coz went out with her..hehe..wen out wif her on friday and monday..friday teman her and afiqa went to paragon and met syaz..after she and afiqa went on interview..oh and dearest get NURSING..ahaahaha..okie i canot stop laughing about it wen she gets it..heehe..but congrats to u and afiqa coz dapat masuk sama course..den on monday watch movie wif her and haiqal and her gf..yepz watch "i am legend"..great show its wonderful but it was too short but it was action-packed..ektuli i wanted to watch wif dono who as dearest watch wif afiqa alredi..tapi hehe..she insist on watching wif me again..altho i say dun need as it will be a waste of money..yepz..hehe thankiew u..=)..den after dat went to search for her dad present which she bought an adidas shirt..den after dat bought hehe bought my second BRAZILIAN PRAIA sandals..wee..hehe..after the last sandalmintak ampun sebab dah nak koyak..i actuli made up my mind on dis for a short while as dis 1 has limited sizes hehe..oh eherm den after dat teman her wait for her family to reach at eunos station..sebab she keseorangan..and after her desakan hehe..

den on sunday..went to celebrate dearest NADIA birthday..she is two years old now..and now she recognise me..hehe..she is so cutee lah..arw..haha..kiut3 i like her..ahahaha..so putih..and so hehe kiut..okie stop it...and now she can tok more..dulu she like reli scared ler of toking..nw hehe..her mulut canot stop..hehe..and her favourite word is....HEBOH!!..hehe..kiut lah..oh as per normal ECP was packed wif people..played roller blading after sometime..tot i lost it..but yah after puffing on motivating myself hehe i blade lik a beginner..ahaha..memang pon..oh and i mis the old time wher all the EVO guys got togeda and cycle to changi village..haiz..i wan..who wan to teman me!!..i want to cycle..

so yah dats some up of how my year end in 2007..2007 has been greaat year..meeting new frnds..starting a new school life..great poly frnds..wonderful hillgrove friends who plays apart in my life..i hope we do not lose contact somehw..yah...i will try to go to all the outing dat has been planned for us..yepz..ders been so many ups and down in 2007..the most greatest ting is dat i met her..yesh..her..heehe..klah sampai disini dulu yer..salam buat smur..bubbyez..i am so not in the mood to school yet..

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