the journal book of my life.. 30.10.30.10 <3

herlew people..

okie sori for the beri not so updated blog yet again..jus dun find the mood to blog...now dah nak blog ni,haha

its been 1 week since exam ffinish!!!yipee..hahaha..sunguh the relieve..tapi tulah sekarang lak gementar nak tau result..tk nak tau boleh..?confidence to macam low sikit gtu kan..hehe

been searching for jobs..and still tak dapat..-__-..its owaes been lik dat seh..ever since i search for job since o level tak pernah nak dapat..grrr..!!!..takper2..gue ingat..aper2 jangn give up k yasa..aper2 kau pakser orang tu ambek kau..haha..lame freak..and i been wasting my time argh loooking for job and now sampai tak tau nak cari kat maner lagi...haha

dahlah enuf about jobs..so gona menggangur..and criusly i need cold hard cash...anibodi wiling to donate to persatuan anak2 yang tkder kerja..?..

oh and sebab terlalu banyak masa yang kosong..my abang sedarer and me decided to bake..haha..yah bake!!..like literaly bake..and we bake cupcakes..haha...kental siol...for the frst time seh uat sendiri..and yah jadi to jadi..cumer keras..sampai ader orang cakap lempar anjing pn kojolah..kalau lempar semut semut tak sempat mengucap..grr..lau lempar tembok tembok pecah lah..smurlah smur..haha..yang penting cake dier bantut argh!!!!..haha k abes criter..but gerek argh atleast if jadi can make for some1 special kan..???.heheXD

erm yah.sumting jus happen..which yah reli took a toll on me..erm rasa sedih giler tu aderler..and yah....wont go any further..cumer the feeling..cumer i alone can noe yah..it was reli bad lah..:(..i jus hope the past wont repeat kan..once in the past is enuf..i dun need it to be repeated..and i yah i noe dearie didnt do it on purpose kan..sori u..i shud haf understand the situation frst but yah i was over reacting kan..urgh.so3 sori..lets put the pieces back togeda k..urgh..and i reli hope dat yah tings wont go to dis bad again reli..lets change for the better k:) and yah..gud luck for ur test tau esok..yah jangn give up k..owaes will try to be der to comfort u..

and yah doa for me k evibodi..i am having my final theory test dis fri..wish me all the luck k..so dat i can finish my car license earlier insyallah..k bye..tekker..

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yeh..no more math paper..yipeee!!

alhamdulilah tadi boleh buat math paper..worth studying..but like i say i gave up on graph and integration urgh susah..and no time..tapi got do some part of the qn lah so yepz..okie no more math for me..YIPEE!!!!..

oh the migrain dat cause my brain gonna drain out of me badly lik reli bad time men...so many tings happen out of sudden i dun get my rest properly been sleepin around 2 evi nite..for some its normal for me its abnormal okie..adoi..it reli hurts..i am gonna get sick soon beri soon i tink..yah..and wen i get sick its bad..yah..but looking forward for the last paper which is on wed and den i am gona celebrate!!..yahoo..tapi belajar nyer tak nak..tengk camner..haha did i jus say dat..??..of course lah i am gonna study..tak study nak jadi aper eh..eheheh..oh still having migrain while writing dis blog

on the other tings..yah..no comments..such a fool of me..hate myself seh..ish YASA!!..please lah change lah u tooot...heh..?..i am scolding myself am i...ok..yesh i did..haiz..jus wanna haf tings to be owaes wonderful..tapi tengklah ni..saper yang meranapkan dan yah mengkecohka...yasa jugak..haish no comment lah yasa..no wonder people leave u..k enuf.. :-I

yeh on a hepi note..went out wif sister and abang..glad dat dis year i tink we been going out more den last year hhaha..went to pennin..i wanna get a bag..a camera bag..but without a camera inside..get wad i mean..tapi i am out of moni..and i am going bankrupt soon..oh wait now..I DECLARE MYSELF BANKRUPT..and if yah u haf lobang for job..please contact me at 92724174..k2..haha i am desperate okie for moni..i wanna belanja..k dah..and pay hhp bill and buy new phone!!-__-(still missing second gf.....)..back to the outing..hehe went penin den adeq bought jeans..den went to marina to eat..and to cari job..kuang3..oh yah y i went out was abang was being iritatin to ask us out..and we took photos..wink3..haha..k dah..bye..update later k..

i need to study..somebody start me..(ikut macam filem the mask..k lame..)

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haish..

makin menambah teruk condition sekarang eh..

i jus something..something so precious and yah important..it add up to my sadness i am facing now..i canot bear the lose of it..goodbye forever..my beloved W810i hp!..duh!..urgh..sedih seh my hp rosak..!!..geram giler boleh tak...!!!grr!..tsk2
sedih seh..hp tu ader anyak kenangan seh..and she is my second gf k dat will owaes teman me...tsk3..:(..aiyo..dat is the frst phone i bought wif my own money okie..den the pictures,videos,stuffs..messages..urgh..!.dahlah kecian seh hp tu..gudbye my friend gudbye my lover..u hav been the one for me.-__-.

erm yah tings..tings..shud be back to normal in a matter of time..yah..shud be okie..i am so ashamed of myself..i didnt haf the courage to face u at that point of time..urgh..feel beri bad..reli bad..i reli hope tings wont go dis bad animore k..sori dearest.i am such a chore.i am rite..i need to change..so yah me changing..i hope it will be for the better k..rindu kamu lah...:D

oh yah i haf to wait beri long seh for my final theory..dats mean longer time to finish my license..urgh tak sanggup nak naik public transport..help me..

oh and gue lom habes2 study!!!!..dodol..i need a miracle...god help me insyallah..

rindumu!<3

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it was so sudden..

so2 unexpectable but yet it was meant to be happen..

i kept it to me so dat i wont hurt
tings became worse after dat
get much worse
till....
noting can be done
and it canot be undone
it oni makes me realise
i am.....

it was yah hurtful.i was sad.it was as if i was alone.it was neba meant to be told to anibodi.i keep it to myself.by dat.it hurt me badly.i was on the wrong for sure.but dats me.sometimes sometings were neva meant to be told. yah.mayb it was ok mayb it was not.u look to me as if i was hapi but inside it was hurting badly..yesh some did ask about it..but wad will i get if were to tell..it will be the same reaction.........enuf of my emo...

yah adeq burfday party was superb..tapi ramai giler orang kat ECP dat day..and we were sent by mom to book the place and we were sent away from home around 0830..it was meant to be fun wen abang and i go out togeda..haha..how i wish i can get my license faster so dat i can drive instead of taking yah public transport..urgh..i jus wan to finish it fast..sat der settle down and we set up tent..tak beraper lama but lama jugak yana frnd datang..haiyo their sense of direction rabak..haha..diorang drop down kat 360 ski and dey need to walk beri100 to our so call bbq pit..by the time sampai dah kepanasa..biasa jugak yana frnd alil bit kecoh jus adeq.yang penting smur kawan dier kecoh lah eh..oni me gud boi..hehe :) ..den sat and eat and sat..and we becane water boi for the day..me and my abang sedarer again..i was reli frustrated ektuli tapi aper leh uat anak sulung haiz..den ders noting i can do..den after so many tings of tired stuff.sat down kat tikar look to the sky..and we tok..tok crap dat is..and now i noe thru fatin dat jellyfish haf electricity..muahaha..and we kept dsturbing her..den we go home togeda coz kereta tak cukup tempat so we go home took mrt..yah so dats how it ends..

erm yah been working too..tired giler oki!!..kat taka dat is..work sat and sun..now i noe it hurt u noe wen u need to stand for 12 boring hours..!!meet some gud customer oni 2 to 3 bad customer..yang bad pn tak bad sangatlah coz dey cerewet oni..and since i work as a retail i became the customer model..kuang2..haha..became their walking mannequin..hehe..

yah dahlah update till here..not much to update..i am still yet to study for my exam..-_-..

haish for tings dat is hapeening...B**rl*h asalkan all the tings dat is happening yah happens for a reason..tings gonna change from now on..and i knoe it shud and u too

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ALAS..i am reli relieve dat school test,quiz,presentation and projeects dah abes!!!!..wohooo!!!..but ders two more tings left..computing math and business informatic exams which is coming up..argh!!..can do it for business i tink and i noe ader anyak topic to belajar..but math like haf so many problem lik dat..argh math wad to do..

wee..reali i can feel dat i can reli rileks alil bit after last week as most of the tings dah bis..now nak pikir pasal work pulak urgh malas sunguh nak werk..tapi i want the money!!..so of course we need to work earn money but den dat will kill our daily life..including not meeting her!!..argh..takleh argh..!!

sat stayed at home do housework dok..ahaha..and yah go belajar digital elec wif dorang..so kecoh sia dngn dorang..and korang stop it eh woif korang nyer orang minyak eh..aku btol2 cari korang baru tau malam2..hahaha

sun wen wif out wif adeq,abang and fatin adeq` s frnd..ahaha..abang is reli annoying coz he keeps on disturbing fatin..haha..fatin pulak lagik sikit nak nangis..taklah..haha..but looks lik a volcano gettting readi to erupt..and we ate alot okie dat day..ni adeq nyer pasal argh..aargh perut gembung tol..and to fatin..ahaha..sori eh..ahah..jangn marah2..

okie yah i been looking for job from now..saper 2 ader holes..can tag my board..ahaha..k yepz..

klah dats all i tink..malas nak update anyak2 hehe..and i mis dear so much..argh can bear it..ish2...haish..takper tahan jer k..:D..jus hoping eviting will go well withing us..=D..k till here den

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